Loner...

hmm... Today I forgot what the actual topic Selena & I were talking, suddenly I mentioned that I was actually a loner... haha... But with my past 6mths record, it was really hard to say I am a loner... haha... Taiji, Tennis, Swimming, jogging, KTVs, bowling, entertaining people on MC/leave, blogging, looking for job, go tampines interchange look at gals, chiong, Toastmasters and Japs...

To be frank, I feel fortunate to know Xiaoping, Jeremy, Ronald, Daniel, ZhengBin, Yang Chao, Guo Cheng, Gwen and Yen Hao. Without them, I wont have joined the Losers Club, East side Tennis Club and East side Swimming Club. Without joining these clubs, I believed that I wont have enjoyed my life so much...

Still remembered quite a few years back... I was so bored and my morale was so low until I was not looking forward for tomorrow nor even the next minute. Till to an extend that I felt to end my life, cause that time I felt so meaningless to stay alive. Then took up part time degree, things started to get alittle better as I had less free time, lesser time to think of what to do to occupy myself later. So eat, breath and irriatates people until today... haha...

Not too sure did I share this part of my life with anyone before, even if I did everyone should feel that I was joking or talking cock... haha... With my hehe haha character, I am quite sure quite a number of people dont quite believe it.. But WHY NOT??? Everyone has their LOW times. I was just lucky that my cheerful character lasted slightly longer than other people who were not as fortunate.

To people who feel to end their life... Think of ur family... Get yourself occupied. Due to monetary problem, then must even get more occupied to earn the money... I understand it is easy to be said that done. BUT WHAT CAN WE DO besides moving forward? We are actually no different with an ant in a hive. At times, we dont have much choices, to stay survive thats the only way. So much about this until I seriously feel that it is easier to stay alive for other people than for ourselves... Just to fulfill the requirements of other people, and work is done. Easy, isnt it? haha...

Busy Long Weekend

25/10/2008:
Morning went for a 3.2km jog at Tampines Stadium...
I think weather was hot, I was sweating profusely... Feel so SHIOK & Shag... haha...

Then Afternoon went to Yu Chang's Wedding...
Food was ok, but was a pretty well gathering with my Air Force friends... haha...

Then Night... Met Xiaoping, Qwen, Jeremy, ZhengBin, Neo, Daniel, Shao Feng & xxx (sorry...) at St James... I had been looking forward for this outing for very long... In general, it was still fun. Just feel that we should have got into DragonFly earlier... hehe... But found mono, boiler & power house were ok too... But feel that I enjoyed myself further in Luxy (Taipei). Quality of gals, I feel were ok. But in St James, I realised there were so many tables & chairs, how to dance??? I saw most of the people chit chatting more than dancing. So found it alittle strange... Another ridiculous issue was they stopped us from going in when they felt they the clubs were full. For fire safety, I understand that the officials had to stop people from entering. But problem lies that we were already inside the building!!! Then what the hell???!!! Pay money to sit at lobby? I seriously feel that the management of St James should do something about this issue. But one thing I liked, St James didnt deaf me for 2-3days & Luxy did.















26/10/2008:
Slept till 11am then woke up. Went to Calista's house. Not a house warming, but we volunteered to help warm the house. hehe... Then after that, we went to the Hotspring of Singapore.

It is located in Sembawang Airbase. U will have to park ur vehicle at the HDB car park. Then walked to the point. It may not be as glamous as what we see in Japan & Taiwan, but I feel it has its own charm. The whole place was smelled with Sulphur, water was very very very hot. People who liked to go, I feel it is advisable to bring ur own pail & towel.



After dinner @ Sakae Susi, we went Night Safari. This was my 3rd visit. It has its charm too. But maybe my curiousity to animals wasnt there, so I just followed the crowd & played along... hoho... Thanx to Calista! Drove me back, so save my cab fare... hehe...


























27/10/2008:
Morning was free, online for a while. Then after went to meet Yan Yan @ Tanjong Pagar. I was kind of shocked. This was the first time I saw Youde & Yan Yan after Pri 4... haha... To be frank, I dont really remembered Yan Yan, somehow knew her & dont really know why I know her name... haha... As for Youde, we were in Choir thats how we knew each other. But after the Choir had disband, kind of lost contact until Monday. haha... Huimin, I think we met last year for KTV.. Amos, just met in June in our 6B gathering. As for Ting Ting, we really knew each other when we were in Poly as we were the Student Union GL. As for another lady... Peishan... Hmm... I feel she looks like another friend of mine, HuiQing. Except HuiQing is tann, Peishan isn't. I find her familiar (maybe because she & HuiQing looks alike), but I am quite sure that we didnt even talk for a single word with each other before. haha... But whatever... haha.. But I feel this was an good opening for a bigger Yu Neng Graduates 1994 gathering... haha... See how it goes then... hehe...

ToastMasters Meeting - 22/10/2008

Today went for a Joint Meeting at CairnHill CC (near Newton MRT).
Food was good, only feel that the CC is alittle old... haha... Suitable to make horror movies with it.
This meeting I presented my Project 5 - Body Gestures.

Presents:
1) Thumbs-Up Gesture
2) Okay Hand Gesture
3) V-Sign

Rather disappointed with myself this time round... In fact was very disappointed...
Old mistakes made by same person...

I paused for too long... I forgot what I gona to say... Sianz... Next one MUST do a GOOD one... Must really manage my time more efficiently... Still find myself dazing at times... haiz... Then whenever I made a mistake, my tongue will come out... Must correct my habits...

Realised something about myself... My strength is also actually my weakness... The laughters... For causal talks with friends, it became a strength. People remembered me. But when up to a formal presentation or speech (time to be serious), it becomes my greatest weakness. People may feel that I was not serious & lack of confidence in what I had said. As what Rose (my Evaluator) said, "Even with mistakes, just continue. Because nobody will know." No one will know unless someone point it out... haha... This also reminded me about the importance of talking with confidence. When one talks confidently, even he talks rubbish, people will feel that he makes sense & buys his idea. On the other hand, another person may know alot of things but when he sounds not that confident. The credit will go to the person that talked rubbish. I should have known this already... But still make the same mistake... haha...

My Ah Counting: 1er, 5 repetitions

They also invited a Laughter Therapist... I feel that almost "killed" by her... First time I laughed till sweat... In addition, felt hot. Just like going for execrise, but felt more tiring than exercise... haha... Kept on "hahahahahahahahaha".... Shag... Maybe still unable to appreciate the process... But was an eye-opener... hehe...

A long chat with 妹妹

haha...
Today 妹妹 called about touring to Japan next year 2009 November....
Come On...
Next yr November leh...
Is it alittle too early to talk abt it??? haha...
Oops...
But I could feel that she was very excited and looking forward for the trip... haha...
Until now, beside 妹妹 and future Brother-In-Law, may have my neighbours and Qiaowei...
Decided to go in November because told by my neighbour and friend, saying that November is their Autumn, everything will be in orange... hoho... To be frank, I am looking forward too.. haha... Went Japan in March during the Sakura, it was GREAT!! haha...

Another Week...

It was another week over...
But this week was better, caused my pay had come to my account... Pay Day!!! wahaha...
Since a long time money have not been transferred into my account... haha...

This Saturday, played a tennis tournament match my Ronald... He won 2 sets... So sad...
My tennis skill is still not mature yet... Lotz of faults & out... Must reduce the self-induced mistakes... hehe..

(Ronald liked to have Ice Milo)

Even if it was an play-play tournament orgainsed by Xiaoping, we were also serious about participation and sportsmanship!

Then after went to ToastMaster Club Division Compeition as audience... Didnt enjoy much... Maybe due to the warm morning at Tennis court, I was having headache & tired... haha...

Later in the late evening, went supper with Poh Soon Kim & Beng Chye. This was ah hoc organise by Ah Poh, as he would like to pass us his wedding dinnner invitation. We had a long chat... haha... Too bad that Er could not make it... Saturday night 10pm, he was still working... Poor Wei Yuan...

Sunday:
Swimming: 30laps.
Then treated the Swimming club lunch at 505. hehe.. Cause my first pay after Air Force...
Then went 光音庙 to pray... I think this was the first time I met difficulty on the way to pray... It was raining cats & dogs... Heck it, I still carried on my journey with my umbrella & cap. When I reached the temple, my bermundas were half-drenched... Sianz... Also couldnt do anything about it, so just carry on to do what I need to... haha...
Went Sim Lim Square after praying... Found out technologies fly... What I used to know were instantly expired... Have to pick-up again... haha... Initially thought go Suntec to find Selena. Learnt from her that there was bone marrow donation at Suntec, but planned fail due to raining... haha.. Maybe next time ba... hehe....

钟汉彬, 加油咯!

ToastMaster Meeting - 16/10/2008

I was late again... Reached around 7.40pm...
At least there was improvement... haha...

Today was an equally fun meeting. This time, i was an audience... The last time I was an audience was my first meeting in Tampinese Changkat... haha...

As usual, there were many beautiful words and phases used:
- Change can be hurt, Grow can be Painful.
- Growth is the only evidence of life. (Now I understand, why my father was unhappy when he didnt see his plants grow)
- Freely U give, Freely U receive.
- ghoeti = fish
- recapitulate: normally we used as re-cap.
- operative speaker


Then after the meeting, went for a drink with ToastMaster friends.
The usual coffee shop & drink stall uncle... He let us know some of the nicknames given for the drink:
- Milo = "tuck jiu" (kick ball)
- Chrysanthemum Tea = Ah Huen (阿花)
- Chinese Twas = "Teo Ghue" (Fishing)

The above I can understand where their nick comes from... But there is one that I dont know the origin:
- Ice Milo = "Hao Dai" (yaya papaya, proud)
Whats the relationship? Only proud people ordered Ice Milo?

Watching TV...

haha...
Tonight no Taiji as Shifu not free...
Fortunately, Channel 5 broadcasted "The Rundown" by The Rock.
Quite exaggerating, the actors will never get hurt or die... haha... Some more can dodge bullets...
In general, I feel the movie was still ok... Enjoyed watching...

Seriously forgot when was the last time sat in front of the TV... I think was a documentary on Pacific War... haha...

After relaxing, need to carry on with my Toastmasters Project 5... Need to present it next Wed... haiz...

A busy week...

Mon - Taji
Wed - Basic Japanese Language Class
Fri - Meet Ruth (my financial consultant), then Shopping
Sat - Tennis, Sleep, Facial, then 2nd uncle's house for dinner
Sun - Swimming, Sleep, Sell Bernard's phone, Dinner at home, Homework...

haha...
Slightly get used to my new life, but heard that economy is going to collapse... Sianz...
Wednesday was my first Japs lesson... Unlike Chinese, I can still say that the characters know me & I dont know them... For Japs... We arent close at all... Totally dont know!! haha... Recommended by 师姐 at Tampines North CC, it was taught by a Japanese woman... Thought that it maybe a good chance cause according to 师姐, her English was not very good. So i can practice more... hoho... But alittle shocked that there were about 30 students... haha... Around 4-8 guys... Mostly ladies, & mostly not really mature ladies... Many looks like students or people just stepped out to work... hoho... Of course there are some uncles & aunties... In general, the class was fruitful... Yamate!!! hehe...

Friday: nothing much... Met Ruth.. A quick summary of all my stuffs... Met a new friend, Yang Long during our discussion. Then I walked Mustafa, hopefully to get some new office shirts and pants and bag... But in the end, bought a pair of swimming goggles, tennis racket, tennis balls and a pair of pants... haha.. Racket cost about $65, it may not as good as Xiaoping's one, but feel that it is better than Guo Cheng's one.. haha... Relatively light, but the front portion was slightly heavier so when pushing the balls will need more stength... Nvermind, I got lotz of it... hoho...
Then as for the shirts... Found that the services at Mustafa cannot make it... As there was sign saying "Do not open the new Packet." As I was looking for shirt, the sales personnel chatted among themselves... Haiz... Also affected my mood to buy from them and paritally I was alittle tired... After trying out a pair of pants and straight to the cashier...

Saturday:
A good day to try out my new toy... Found it really suits me... hehe... After lunch with Jeremy, Xiaoping and Guo Cheng, went home & had a nap. Then went for my facial appointment. After that went 2nd Uncle's house for dinner... Just amazed me... Why my aunt can alway cook such good food!!! haha... Then went home to prepare for my Toastmasters Project 5...

Sunday:
As usual, Swimming at Tamp Safra. This time I swam 30 laps. Then went home take a nap. Initially thought of donating blood at Tampines Changkat CC, but saw too many people queuing. Knowing that unable to make it for my next appointment, so didnt donate... Haiz... Then went ahead to meet the phone buyer... Cock ME... Go wrong place... Arranged to meet her at Sengkang, but I went Hougang... No choice, took a cab... Cost me $5.50 & I was about 15min late... Sianz... Eventfully, the item sold... hoho... Reached home, continued to prepare Toastmaster projet then did the homework for the Japs lesson... haha... So now, I blogged them... hehe...

A busy week... Feel a little tired... But I like this... haha.. No matter how is still stronger than doing nothing at home... wahaha...

Toastmasters Meeting - 4/10/2008

Today went Queenstown Community Center for Toastmaster Meeting...
I was appointed as the Test Speaker for the Event... By the way, I feel that the been the Test Speaker is very pitiful because u will have to be critise by 6 people that u dont know! haha...

When I reached there, i got a shock... It was held in Auditorium... I walked in... KAO!!! So many people!!!??? I became very nervous as I thought it was just another normal ToastMaster meeting, maybe with about 30-40people... There were at least 80-100 people in the Auditorium... Sianz...

But had already promised Michael & in additionally, thinking since I was going to speak, what would be the difference if it was 40 or 100 people... So closed 2 eyes & chiong...
But the feeling was the worst during the tea break, couldnt really enjoy the food... What a pity...

Then was my turn to perform.
I was called upon on stage & I jumped onto the stage & shook hand with the contest chair. But was called to come down again because I didnt have my mic on... haha... Somehow, i still felt calm... haha... Maybe due to my title "Stupid ME", such stuns came in just right! haha...

Got up the stage again... GO! GO! GO!
I opened my speech by asking "What was the stupidest thing have u ever done?" & Continued by saying mine was to leave the ATM forgetting to take the money... But i think I did not express it very clearly... haha... Oops... I knew that many of the audience had no idea what I was saying, but HACK CARE, just continued... haha...
I shared 2 incidents:
First Incident: Gal with Ice-Cream
2nd Incident: Gal at ATM

My timing was 5min 28sec.

Then it was time for the Evaluation Speakers.
Summary of Evaluations:
- 2nd story was too long, too draggy. May like to add in more varties of stories into the speech.
- More movements at the stage.
- Too nervous
- More effective in transitions
- Tendency to lean back when i speak
- to be more well-dressed
- Shorter pauses
- Make sure that Audience were clear of ur msg
- More vocal varties
- lastly, PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE

They also commented that my speech was simple, using simple English... Of course, my English standard isnt that high, i dont think I can even pronounce them properly... haha...

But to be frank, I feel that I also feel that I did not prepare myself sufficiently as more of my practice was done in silence... As for pauses.... I seriously had no idea... The only pause that I remembered was when near the end of the my speech. I was about to finish my speech & I hadnt seen the green light! Sianz... Then kicked in a few sentences that I back-up but didnt really practiced them before... Cause when I practiced by myself, most of the time was about 6-7min. Maybe due to nervousness, I spoke slightly faster this time, so caused the speech to be 5min ++ sec.

In general, I thought it was a very interesting exposure... Learnt alot that day... hehe...

Out of Sudden Feeling Guilty...

haha...
Just came back from Toastmaster Meeting & eager to clean myself, but my dad was trying to cling on to a conversation with me... Initially, i felt ok about it as mum was still using the bathroom...

But once mum was out of the bathroom, my urge to shower overwhelmed me! I kind of just wanted to end the conversation immediately & replied "Yeah... Yeah..." without really knowing what my dad was saying... This was the first GUILT.

Second GUILT:
My mum was out of the bathroom. She said that she was not suitable for the job that she went today for orientation today. Too many things to remember & long hours of standing... With the urge to SHOWER, i replied "Up to u lor...." & closed the door of the bathroom...

The bloody hell... Now feel guilty...
早只今日何必当初...

Worse... blog my in filial... haiz...
think partly they were too boring at home, happy to see someone back home... but then "someone" just "rejected" them like this... haiz...

Reflection... Reflection... Reflection...

Toastmasters Meeting - 2/10/2008

Today was late...
30min late, reached the club at 8pm...

I think should be the latest Ah Counter ever...
haha...

But today didnt do a good job... Simply cannot concentrate, I was day-dreaming... Worse, I didnt know what I had dreamt about... haha... Luckily, Virginal was around, sitting besides me, helping...

Or else, I really dont know how to tabulate the reports...
haha...

Thank You, Virginal...

I think I only talked for less than 1 minute, & I had 3 counts of ers... sianz... haha...

Surprised with Bus Fare

haha..
With regards with my previous posting on the bus fare...
hmm...
The rebate is really $0.40...
haha...

Apologises...

Singapore pools in front of 书店

hehe...
Last Saturday attended my cousin's wedding at Stamford Raffles (City Hall).
To be frank, really have to thank her. Because I will not go to that area as Formula One race was on. haha...
While walking around the area, found something interesting at the basement...
Singapore Pools in front of MPH (书店).... haha...











Thought that was interesting... No wonder none of the hot picks won the race... haha... Oops...
At Singapore Pools, there were still quite a few of their staffs to assist people who like to bet on F1, they will help/guide/assist u to gamble... I thought that was a sweet way to earn money... haha...

















Some more pictures on the surroundings