Loner...

hmm... Today I forgot what the actual topic Selena & I were talking, suddenly I mentioned that I was actually a loner... haha... But with my past 6mths record, it was really hard to say I am a loner... haha... Taiji, Tennis, Swimming, jogging, KTVs, bowling, entertaining people on MC/leave, blogging, looking for job, go tampines interchange look at gals, chiong, Toastmasters and Japs...

To be frank, I feel fortunate to know Xiaoping, Jeremy, Ronald, Daniel, ZhengBin, Yang Chao, Guo Cheng, Gwen and Yen Hao. Without them, I wont have joined the Losers Club, East side Tennis Club and East side Swimming Club. Without joining these clubs, I believed that I wont have enjoyed my life so much...

Still remembered quite a few years back... I was so bored and my morale was so low until I was not looking forward for tomorrow nor even the next minute. Till to an extend that I felt to end my life, cause that time I felt so meaningless to stay alive. Then took up part time degree, things started to get alittle better as I had less free time, lesser time to think of what to do to occupy myself later. So eat, breath and irriatates people until today... haha...

Not too sure did I share this part of my life with anyone before, even if I did everyone should feel that I was joking or talking cock... haha... With my hehe haha character, I am quite sure quite a number of people dont quite believe it.. But WHY NOT??? Everyone has their LOW times. I was just lucky that my cheerful character lasted slightly longer than other people who were not as fortunate.

To people who feel to end their life... Think of ur family... Get yourself occupied. Due to monetary problem, then must even get more occupied to earn the money... I understand it is easy to be said that done. BUT WHAT CAN WE DO besides moving forward? We are actually no different with an ant in a hive. At times, we dont have much choices, to stay survive thats the only way. So much about this until I seriously feel that it is easier to stay alive for other people than for ourselves... Just to fulfill the requirements of other people, and work is done. Easy, isnt it? haha...